Sometimes a song just says it all...

I'm in hour 3 of my 4.5 day separation from Jared. It's going to be the first time since I started the semester to go a full 24 hours without seeing him, and I'm not very excited. Honestly, the apprehension and dread of it that I had all week was worse than the actual separation (so far). This Fall "break" is so full of paper writing, project doing, and house-to-house shuffling that it's not going to be very relaxing. And even though that all sounds super pessimistic, I'm excited to be home and have some time off.I'm going to lay around the house, sleep late, and eat my heart out with my momma. I'm going to go watch Harry Potter, eat Red Lobster, and enjoy a night on the town with my daddy. I'm going to have a relaxing Thanksgiving day with family. It's going to be a good break, I just wish I could share this holiday with the person I plan to share my life with. A few days apart will be good for us, I know this...it's just not exciting. For now, I'm just going to go crawl into bed with my mom and cuddle. I love cuddling.

This song was on the radio on the way home. (One perk of driving by myself: singing at the top of my lungs.) It really just fits.I'm not really feeling it, but my mind acknowledges the truth of this song.

Rush of Fools-Undo

I've been here before

Now, here I am again

Standing at the door

Praying You'll let me back in

To label me

A prodigal would be

Only scratching the surface

Of who I've been known to be

Turn me around, pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness and grace

I need You, I need Your help

I can't do this myself

You're the only one

Who can undo what I've become

I focused on the score

But I could never win

Trying to ignore

A life of hiding my sin

To label me

A hypocrite would be

Only scratching the surface

Of who I've been known to be

Turn me around, pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness and grace

I need You, I need Your help

I can't do this myself

You're the only one

Who can undo what I've become

Make every step lead me back to

The sovereign way that You

Turn me around, pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness and grace

I need You, I need Your help

I can't do this myself

You're the only one who can undo

You are the only one who can undo

You're the only one who can undo

What I've become