Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Sharing What God Has Taught Me

I’ve been reading The Purpose Driven life and I highly recommend it. Tonight’s reading stressed to me that it is my duty to pass on to others what I have learned about God. I do this in d-group and in conversations with my father, but I feel like this blog is a perfect opportunity to uplift others. God has done SO very much in my life in the last year and I just want to scream it from the rooftops. One of my favorite verses is Psalms 73:21-26-“When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant. I was a brute beast before you.” I found this verse last February (2009) at a time when I wasn’t close to God. I knew, without a doubt, that God was the answer to my pain, but I felt like I didn’t have it in me to work towards a relationship with him. When I came across this verse, it just broke me. I had been so senseless and ignorant and my spirit was definitely embittered and my heart was immensely grieved. Sadly, I didn’t put true effort into my relationship with God for another 5-6 months after that. So, that’s a small peak at my journey and how far God has brought me. The reason I’m sharing this is to hopefully encourage someone.

Proverbs 11:25-“He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.”
Proverbs 27:17-“As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.”

Obviously, Proverbs was speaking to me tonight. I’ve decided I’m going to start putting little (and big) things I’ve learned on here. I’m going to go through my journals from the last year and see how God has grown me and hopefully someone will wander along and see God in it.

Here’s a verse that will smack you in the face: “Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn’t do it, sins.” James 4:17. Wow. I do that so often. I say, “I really shouldn’t watch this, but whatever I will anyway” or “I should really do something productive today, for God, but I’m tired so I’m going to nap/watch tv/stare at the wall.” I can no longer look God in the face and blatantly choose sin. He deserves so so so much better than my lack of devotion. But you know what? He loves me anyway. He’s infinitely patient with me, even when I break his heart by choosing sin over Him every. single. day. Even more reason to NOT do that anymore. Father God, I am so sorry. Forgive me, and change my heart. Fill me with your desires and your passions and a fire that can’t be quenched. Use me, Father God, for your divine purposes.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Til you and I are one! Til you and I are one!

Worship was amazing tonight, as always.
I was distracted, which always frustrates me.
But God is still amazing, and he still loves me.

I've given my life to him.
Every moment of it.
What do I have to fear?
Since the moment I made the decision to live for God, I have hope.
I look forward to the future, even though I have no clue what it holds.
I've begged God to take my life and use every second of it for his glory.
God gives my life meaning, and I want people to see him in everything I do.

Optimism is definitely not something I've always had.
But God is good.