Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Things are looking up.
I don't know how much better I really am,
but I feel a lot better.
I went to a women's discipleship group last night.
Nicolle, the lady that leads it, isn't one for messing around.
She gets straight to the heart.
She's going to challenge me in ways that at time I'll wish she wasn't.
I know that for sure, but I need it.
We have a one on one today, and I'm excited.
I love talking to Nicolle.
She's real.
And that means I can be too.

Things are popping up that I'm genuinely excited about.
The thought of serving in Oakwood, and similar areas of Conway,
in a longterm capacity really speaks to my heart.
If the next year goes how I'd like it to...
(and we know that doesn't happen often)
then such a weight will be lifted off my shoulders.
Even though what replaces it won't be an easy undertaking.
The difference is in the heart.
My heart is excited about this.
So, we'll see...

Main point: Things are on the up and up...
and God is good.

Relient K-Up and Up

Is not quite what it could've been
As were most of all the days before
But I swear today
With every breath I'm breathing in
I'll be trying to make it so much more

Cause it seems I get so hung up on
The history and what's gone wrong
And the hope of a new day
Is sometimes hard to see (what you see)
And though I'm finally catching onto it
And now the past is just a conduit
And the light there at the end is
Where I'll be

Cause I'm on the up and up
I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up
Given up on what
I know I'm capable of
And I'm on the up and up
I'm on the up and up
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
Cause I'm just trying to be
A better version of me
For you
A better version of me
For you

To be prosperous
Would not require much of me
You see contentment is the one thing
It entails
To be content with where I am
And getting where I need to be
I'm moving past the past
Where I have failed

But I'm finally catching onto it
And now the past is just a conduit
Right there at the end
Is where I'll be

You never cease
To supply me with
What I need
For a good life
So when I'm down
I'll hold my head up high
Cause you're the reason why
I'm on the up and up